im close wif sherleen and celine nw :) but i dont know my. my double partners,i just cant get along.

first jocelyn chong,then sherleen ng,now rebecca thng..

coach say the prob is me

other doubles have no problems,but mine...hais..

they all get along so well.

rebecca is like freaking close wif jocelyn chong and kamilia,but when i try to be nice,she rejects me or find excuse to get away..its nt like im asking for her heart,i hav my heart wif someone else :)

tis week got wee kim wee cup tornement,cause seniors playing then juniors which is my batch dont really need alot ppl to play.and i was one of those who didnt.

previously,in the nationals cause i nvr play i got kinda jealous and tweeted lots of stuff on twitter that wasnt offensive but then my teammates saw and sorta ignored me for 1 week.til i broke down and a senior help me talk things out wif them.alls almost back to normal.but theres always a barrier

kay back to the present,its not good lingering on the past.you cant change what hav passed

so i went to arena club and warmed up to just stroke and not play.then elsie our senior came and told us the linesup. me,second doubles! i totally nt prepared and i cant play a double wif rebecca! we cant even talk more than 10 words directly

luckily we won the first 3 games and mine was the 4th so we didnt need to play. thank god!

kay shall continue in another post cause its more ...thinking